A lonely and restless night yet again. I cant help but worry about my future. What should I do? How should I tackle my incoming problems?

The people I meet from this point on will always have a motive to be friendly. Should I shut it all out or should I turn a blind eye to their motive and just make friends?

For someone like me... Little friends to begin with, such bad socializing skills and such bad communication skills. Can i trusly state what i meant across without being affected by the other? Clearly, logically and rationally?

I guess everyone have their own set of worries and troubles... I am still glad I made this blog to vent. -.-

I thought I was determined to live alone for the rest of my life. But recently, I started to doubt myself determination. My doubt did not grow from meeting someone instead it grew from loneliness.

So I started to think again, can I go into a relationship?

Will I meet someone without any ulterior motive but just love me for who I am?

I am afraid. Afraid of what the future might bring. Afraid to move forward. Afraid I might meet someone who loves me for who I am.

Can I really withstand the loneliness of the long night?

Being my age now, I really cant help but feel afraid. Afraid that i might never meet such a person. Also afraid that if i ever meet such a person, how am i going to accept another relationship. How am i going to fall in love? How am i going to find the courage to be in love? To be with someone?

Why cant time move faster? Move faster to reach the end of my lifetime, to free me from this agony......